Exploration of The MIND

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A fresh start

So…were nearly 2 weeks into the new year and I’ve been quite busy. I have been putting things in order and basically working out where I’m going to start with all the plans I’ve made. I must say i feel great and extremely optimistic.
I received a digital SLR camera as a gift and so i have decided to take a photography course and make my passion for photography more than a hobby. I am not going to list to you everything that i am trying to do at the moment, but i will say watch this space, as i will inform you of my progress. This year i have decided that I’m not going to put aside my fears and start doing the things that i have always wanted to do, yet never thought i would be good at.

It saddens and irritates me that some people are so stuck in their ways. It’s a new year now, and i refuse to accept the same bullshit that i took from other people last year. This is a fresh start for me in many ways, but you always have those people that seem to still want to try and weigh you down – people close to me that seem to think i never get tired.
Well, new years eve i made a lot of promises to myself. I choose not to call them resolutions this year as i never seem to stick to them, but i know that if i made promises to myself i wouldn’t break them. Amongst my many promises, was the promise that i would start thinking more about myself, and accept know less than respect from anybody.  If i pay you respect then i don’t see why i should not receive the same in return. I became increasingly tired of giving certain people chance after chance-listening to excuses and lies and rubbish, only to be constantly disrespected by those close to me. So i decided NO MORE. I decided to reevaluate certain friendships and other relationships. I have taken full control of my life, and decided i am now longer doing or being to please others. And those who do not like it know what they can do. Since making this perfectly clear i have noticed a change in the attitude of those around me and also in myself. I am now not so busy worrying the state of certain matters caused by others, its like a part of me has let go and almost doesn’t really care anymore. I spent so long caring and trying to make things right and got no where, so now I’m just going to think about me. I think that’s fair enough.

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January 13, 2009 Posted by | Personal stuff, Uncategorized | , , , | 2 Comments