Exploration of The MIND

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A fresh start

So…were nearly 2 weeks into the new year and I’ve been quite busy. I have been putting things in order and basically working out where I’m going to start with all the plans I’ve made. I must say i feel great and extremely optimistic.
I received a digital SLR camera as a gift and so i have decided to take a photography course and make my passion for photography more than a hobby. I am not going to list to you everything that i am trying to do at the moment, but i will say watch this space, as i will inform you of my progress. This year i have decided that I’m not going to put aside my fears and start doing the things that i have always wanted to do, yet never thought i would be good at.

It saddens and irritates me that some people are so stuck in their ways. It’s a new year now, and i refuse to accept the same bullshit that i took from other people last year. This is a fresh start for me in many ways, but you always have those people that seem to still want to try and weigh you down – people close to me that seem to think i never get tired.
Well, new years eve i made a lot of promises to myself. I choose not to call them resolutions this year as i never seem to stick to them, but i know that if i made promises to myself i wouldn’t break them. Amongst my many promises, was the promise that i would start thinking more about myself, and accept know less than respect from anybody.  If i pay you respect then i don’t see why i should not receive the same in return. I became increasingly tired of giving certain people chance after chance-listening to excuses and lies and rubbish, only to be constantly disrespected by those close to me. So i decided NO MORE. I decided to reevaluate certain friendships and other relationships. I have taken full control of my life, and decided i am now longer doing or being to please others. And those who do not like it know what they can do. Since making this perfectly clear i have noticed a change in the attitude of those around me and also in myself. I am now not so busy worrying the state of certain matters caused by others, its like a part of me has let go and almost doesn’t really care anymore. I spent so long caring and trying to make things right and got no where, so now I’m just going to think about me. I think that’s fair enough.

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January 13, 2009 - Posted by | Personal stuff, Uncategorized | , , ,

2 Comments »

  1. Yes, I’d say that’s fair. You should think about yourself more and take no shorts as we used to say. The photography sounds great. I dabble a bit too. I’m not taking any classes though. I’ll have to see. I wish you the very best. Take care and God be with you on this journey of self. Peace~

    Comment by Stephen Bess | January 13, 2009 | Reply

  2. Sounds like someone close to you has let you down i feel like that came straght from the hart. I hope whatever you decide things workout for.i’ve read a bit of your work and love the way you put certain things but this peice really touched me sounds so familar.Dont let people bring you down or disrespect your right NO MORE this year think about yourself and i hope things go well.
    Good luck with your photography course

    Comment by M.L.S | January 17, 2009 | Reply


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